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M is for Music P is for Profile (and Phatee)  Patricia Estrellla.
born on [February 12] and I'm sweet[16]. I study at [St. Joseph] as a second year high school student! I LOOOVE clothes, shoes, food, music, hair and make-up (what girls don't?) so you will see a lot of that kind of content in my blog. If you know me well, you'd learn that I'm actually kind of nerdy, down to earth, real, and definetly NOT like anyone else. Please visit my FLICKR &  BLOGGER PROFILE
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Today I went job hunting with my lovely. She helped me overcome some fears with confronting the people ahhaa I'M SO PUSS. But yeah, I applied at Rocky Mountain, Freshly Squeezed, Stance (seasonal), Richtree, and that's just round 1. I'll get to the last resorts later but I can't wait til I'm 16 so I can try Aritzia! My dream part-time job!! :) By then I'll hopefully be able to make some MAD BANK. I wanna do seasonal SEPHORA because I LOVE that store and the seasonals just stock and clean! :) I'm asked my mom if I could and she said of course I could work late for that job. I hate being asked my availability. I never know what to say because my homework is different all the time. Richtree asked me so much on the spot, I was such a nervous pervous. hey! Remind me never to go to SQ1 on a PA DAY tooo many niners/loafts just infesting the city center portal it's too jokes. Anyways, we have guests over and I'm bored as fuck. Prolly gonna get to study. Later friends :) to-do
Labels: friends, job hunting, project 69, work 1 HEARD 'EM SAY  nts: LAVENER EYELINER =') 0 HEARD 'EM SAY music: la la la - lil wayne (ITS WEEEZY BAAAYYBEH!)...hahahha fuck! mood: chill and embarassed So, last night was semi. See below for the pictarz Kevin Antonio was hooking me up with some juiice... like not a lot... but Jensy gave me some too :D mission shitfaced FAILED. I'm convinced that I wont ever get shitfaced... ever. I'm somewhat okay with that. I want just one night before school starts. Add that to the to do list. Anyyyways, back to semi. It sOunded SOOO lame, like.... C'MON, Wild Water Kingdom? really?!?! hahaha.. it was okay though.... ppl were fucking making a shit out of it like planning after parties, R U SRS?! LAAAAAAAAME!!!! But yaya ate, chilled, took pics, then the bloodening right after desert and before the main mealio forced me to dipppp. My cousin fucking got 3 nose bleeds... He's been getting them every day for 3 weeks at odd hours of the night. The first aid staff at wwk had to rush to his aid and I stayed right outside the boys washroom the whole cottdamn time while ppl were dancing. I was a little pissed, but I had no right to because he could be in serious health risks. So, my aunt forced me to leave the part at around 11.... when it was supposed to end at 2 (so unreasonable :*() and sarah tagged along being the darling that she is. For some stupid reason we stayed at the hospital... haha ok I was a bigggg bitch coz I was soo pissed idk I wasted like 30 bucks to eat shit food and get dressed so I dont think it was worth the time. but ANYWAYS, l'hopital... i was acting up so my aunt brought me & sarah home and I crashed at my bed immediately, waking up to realize how ashamed of myself I was. I'm such a bitch and I dont even realize it sometimes. I end up HATING my family for being so embarassing and not letting me do whatever I want, not letting me have the freedom others have! And yet, many times i fail to realize that I am really privileged. Perhaps the boys are right, I am a bit of a brat :P Nonetheless, I need to stop comparing myself to my friends and just realize I'M NOT THEM and shit is different.. everything DOES happen for a reason, and I dig that. Maybe I wasn't supposed ot blaze or get drunk all the times I wanted because God doesn't believe it's right for me. Sometimes I isolate myself from my family because I dont agree with anything or anyone in it. I frown upon all of them as a righteous ass pretentious 15 year old wanna be punk nerd ass fucked up SANDY VAGINA BRAT. & now I guess I should save this hardcore fashion loving BULLSHIT for the last week of summer because I want to be the one good uncoorrupted Estrella/De Guzman. I feel fucking embarrassed to say this, but not one NOT ONE fucking member of my family has wed before getting pregnant. And I don't ever care about sex/chastity/ any of that... but seeing how pissed I am to know this information it makes me want to devout my life as pure (in that cherry popping sense aahha) Every kid wants a life and being a teenager is ALLEGEDLY the most fun people have in their lives, so sometimes I'll question this- is it really worth the pride? throwing away your youth? maybe it it is, maybe it isnt, but I just dont wanna fuck up my life. To compromise for the mixed emotions I'm getting..... the word of the day... or decade, rather.. is limit....with a little bit of priority. Keeping in mind that happiness is also a priority but there are limits to it... and there are other ways t have fun without being a badass :P behold- tranny in dress ahead(mee haha):  shes too pretty to take a picture with :( might as WELL rename this "perversions of patricia album" :(! haha ok im such a pervert ahah hahah i HAD to throw this in, credits to lol_nazis @ lj comm  wtf is wrong with my skin? JAUNDICE, right hurr. loveliesss fam jam they MADE me do this!!! brb crying being around all these qtier than me's. guess what, I'm COOL :)In other random ass ramblings: unnecessary is probably my most favourite word... EVER. i can't help myself to laughing everytime i hear it? to do: pmall with eleisha downtown with the homies blaze shitface/piss drunk nite with...? youtube videos HAHAHA cottage with fam? (eeeee...) leearn to skateboard wild water kingdom with the boyssss go kart paintball polaroids roller skate party photo shoot lmfao TO BUY: new striaghtener new phone colourful binders white out lead cool pens + pencils skateboard polaroid films ms points school shoes bonus material: Earlier the day, well at around midnight- I made cookies & saved them for Artemio. The next morning I ended up ditching Kensington coz... well I woke up too late :( I curled my hair and biked over to Timmy's. We watched my FAVE show, Filmore, Guitar Hero'd. and Danny came.. then Nkechi demanded her xbox shiz (I think) and brought my charger. In pursuit of a semi dress, I spotted them bus tickets to Square and then we just kind of loafted. I found a lovely dress at Le Chateau but unfortch, I don't have the boobs for it! :@ It's a gradient of dark blue to light blue and it's sleveless and the titties are wrapped, hahaha. Anywhoooo, I had to dip because it was 5 and I needed to be at semi by 6.30 selon de kevin BUT STILL get ready with sarah, elaine, charlene... eh I ended up getting there at like maybe later than 8 because I LEFT MY DADS IPHONE @ TIMS! I went to his house and left them at Square with Jericho while they ate Johnny Rockets and I just missioned to Tims house and walked home after frantically searching for my dads phone...I left the bike there forTim to borrow so we could go biking some time. By the time YI got home it was like.. 6 and I got dressed to go to Kevins (cousin) house so I could go to sarahs house HAHA I knew I would be late but that wasn't nearly the end of it. Loafted @ Kevins for a while then went to Sarahs and loafted a bit with my love, KARINA! :) She's so coool =*) After that, we left on our way to Char's bf. Anyways yeah on our way there we saw Elaine and her date! HAHA. We arrived at Le Jardin, finally, which was BEAUUTIFUL :*) :*) (just like a castle/ a dream come true! An ideal place for a PRINCESS like me :) :) )I wanna have my party there but I NEED A POOL WTF! maybe I could have an after party @ a hotel and then youuu know check in some rooms :D Surprisingly, we still waited a few minutes until the frikkin appetizers had to come so im glad we were late, otherwise awkward drama and chilling would insue. soo yeah, MISSION ACCOMPLISH... little did i know how the rest of my night would go!! When we arrived, everyone was as cute as could be :D Labels: family, friends, hospital, life, party hardy, sex, to buy, to do, work 1 HEARD 'EM SAY semi tomorrow... dont know what to wear, thank god im not working.... in need for halo. going to kensington @ 12 tmrw.... sigh! ill be shit out of my mind and then im going to see sarah im in the biggest FUCKING dilemma. chicks before dicks, ya? ive made my decision. no fucking secrets. i love u both but not enough to risk both good relationships. why cant ur ________ and ______ get along? 0 HEARD 'EM SAY 12:00-7:40 Labels: work 0 HEARD 'EM SAY music: only hope - mandy moore mood: sick and tired sat: 12:00-4:45 - 5 sun: 11:50-7:40 - 8 mon: 11:50 - 7:20 - 7 tues: (halo day) wed: (pineapple express is out...) 1:30-6:00 - 5 total hours: 25 =205$$ as if wednesday 260.35 (current) goal: $8000 status: 465.35 5.8% ! :) slowly but surely, within a year i'll be at japan... who knows if ill even have that much but i have to keep in mind that i made my goals for summer... :( so my plan is: work everyday as possible, still keeping sane find a job for school and work all weekends (fuck thatll kill me..) 14 hrs a week for a year will be 5969.9 around that... still wont get me japan what to do?!?!!? im so desperate 0 HEARD 'EM SAY THE LAST TWO DAYS OF WORK HAVE BEEN THE MOST STRESSFUL OF LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :@ :@ :@ anyways i have to get on thto buy: octopus amigurimi pdf file GET DADS PAYPAL FOR CUSTOM MINNIE MOUSE SHOES FOR SCHOOL!!!!!! buy all my etsy earrings (komodokat sparkly tooth, alwaysamy umbrella & bow, kungfucowgirl ice creams and perhaps tacos?) kitykm ice cream pendant!!!!!!! sailor dress (brownbagvintage...you guys, TRUST ITS THE CUTEST DRESS EVER!! AND I NEED IT.) things i wish i could buy: ticket to anywhere i can see lollapolooza.... so i can see RATM, BR&NEW AND FUCKING LUPE HOW GREAT IS THATTT... im sure theres a longer list of ppl who i love but i cant rly bother to check right now because i am soo icky sticky bitches covered in funnel cake product and nasty food smell. 0 HEARD 'EM SAY Today I only worked from 12:00- 4:45 but it was such a GOOD/productive day :) i was so happy today... stuff that made my day at dairy, they ordered funnel cakes and when sarah put whipped cream around it they started clapping and wowing and shit it was SO CUTE HAHA and then when these japanese boys were ordering their funnel cakes they were like "funner cake wis uhm... chocorate.... ice cream.. strarberry" HAHAHAHA IT WAS SO CUTE "CHOCORATE!!!" :*) i'm really enjoying working... at the beginning of this job i was liek FUCK I HATE WORKING JUST GIMME MONEY but i love helping out everyone being a prominant worker, and finally doing something on my own rather than depending on my parents.... these hungry wet people need me. i'm light super wild water queendom yesterday I applied at american apparel, i made damn sure my resume and cover letters were tip top... the cover letter is so good (if i do say so myself :)) ! i honestly have h uge doubts they'll hire me, though. I forgot i wasn't even 16, yet :S! what the eff, haha. oh well, "you miss 100% of the shots you don't take" i think i'm taking it so seriously just to get my hopes crushed because.. ITS FUCKING AMERICAN APPAREL, and i'm just a fashion amateur :( you had to send in 3 of ur pics to show ur style and i honestly hated my pics haha i have no good pics of me. i used - my bday outfit (which was half-assed... i wasnt even finished undressing lmfao) - this pic of me from civvies day - pic of my after amc i'm so embarassed i over looked that section.. but i really do they ask me for an interview, i'd make a great aa employee. fucking other ppl @ sherway suck... jk jk hahaha... i think i just hate that mall because its infested with rich kids who shop at aritzia (k like.. 8-10 year olds!!!! NUFF SED) i'm scared kind of because if i get the job (ok these is just a possibility!!!) i'd have two jobs and i'd have to quite wild water kingdom and i KNOW they'd be mad. but they can't make me work there forever... and it's only summer so i can get a new job if i want to i guess. i think i'd handle two jobs until summer's over, work on wwk on the side because american apparel is like my dream.. haha its the one job that i've ever really want. and even when i grow up i don't know what i'd want to do... even if i'm a poor bum i'd like to be an american apparel poor bum... or i dont know haha. my savings towards japan so far: 237.23/8000..... LONG way to go. :( :( :( i REALLYYY do want to go... but dereka invited me to her sweet 16 in cali! that sounds really fun :( i want to go.. but how often do u get to go japan with your best friend? never. so i'm gonna have to pick japan. i never go through with my goals but this will have to do. i promised to give my first pay cheque of the year to my mom for her bday since i didn't get her a bday present but i don't know if i can do that because i really want to pay for japan by myself so.... :S :S :S then jace's bday is coming and then my dad's 50th and thats huge so my solution: make them gifts... i'll probably need money to spend on materials coz i'm a michaels/loomis ADDICT!!! but i think it's more thoughtful and original. my sis is getting wii fit for my dad and thats tough competition. as for jace... hmm...... i've honestly give him all my love that i could possibly give but hes just the number one special boy in the world so i want to do it up big. i was thinking of possibly getting him like the cutest hipster outfit ever, haha! maybe i'll bake him an intricate shaped cake, i'll have to round up the girls. Labels: work 0 HEARD 'EM SAY music: date with a night - yeah yeah yeahs mood: dreading the fact that it's the time of the month okay well this is weird but people are NEVERRRR affectionate with me. the only people who hug and kiss me are my parents say word lmfao. at the same tiem i LOVE giving hugs coz its so DAMNED awkward with my friends!!! ahaha. best medicine: a hug and a head tilting SMILE. i don't know why i like when ppl tilt their head when they smile. i think i'ts like to show that you have their undivided attention and they're trying ot be cutesy to cheer you up, haha. metaphorically of course, it could mean that the weight of their smile is SO BIG that their love and care for you tend to physically affect that persons face HAHA... therefore causing their head to tilt? WTF! anyways this is just me speaking out of loneliness. omg exams in like 5 hours holy shit i just finished my exam review RIGHT NOW HOW THE FUCK WILL I STUDY AND BURN MY DVD WHEN THE FUCKING DVD IS FUCKING FUCKED IN THE ASS MY PROJECT LOOKS SO GOOD RIGHT NOW BTU ABSOFUCKINGLUTELY USELESS IF I CANT BURN THIS MOTHAFUKAAAAAAA omg how will i survive i just know im gonna be working everyday for the next few weeks coz im out of summer school. i wanna take a week off to get back on track with everyone and shizz time to sleep :| 0 HEARD 'EM SAY THE DARK KNIGHT..... CRAZIEST MOVIE OF 08!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i saw it midnight screening, as did i see batman begins....... fucking amazing ass movie, words cannot express! you must see it :) slept at 4, woke up at 6:45....... been waking up around that time everyday and sleeping late and i havent slept in for 2 weeks because of work....... and you know how much i like staying up. well im gonna take a long nice nap tonight, hopefully do some homework coz i got work tomorrow from 10-7 i think.. that'll be a bitch... to do: *****look for new job immediately watch dark knight...... AGAIN! hahahah pineapple express tropic thunder (ROBERT DOWNEY JR MARRY MEE) must: save.... aside from all the money i owe, i've decided i'm going to try and reach a gola of 7,500 $ for my trip to japan next year. mabel just pointed out how nights are basically 100/night at a nice hotel, and im scared i'll be struggling with that, so i'll be staying for just 2 weeks... if i could, i'd make it 3 or a month... but i also have to pay for food and transportation, i also know my limits.... budgets.. 5,000 spending money 2,000 for food, and living 500 for transportation as you can see they're high............. thats coz if its low ill be like.. K THIS IS JUST A BUDGET AND ITS SO LOW AND IM NOT AFRAID TO GO OVER IT... but honestly like 8k thats hard shit and so far ive only worked small hours... im working this whole year full of saving just for japan........ OH SHIT and i forgot about my air fare!!!!!! :( omgod... if i work 1000 hours starting today, i can achieve more than this goal so i'm thinking if i start doing 42 hours per week..... nd how am i gonna do 42 hours per week?!?! every 2 weeks i would get 714.... so every month i would get 1428.......... would be more than enough. assuming i still have a job. i also must keep in mind i have school..... so lets see... I HAVE GOT TO SAVE SAVE SAVE.... that i think will be easy coz i told my mom to not let me touch my paychque, and i really just owe her everything.. i accidentally charged my friends their dark knight tickets 10 bucks or 10.50 only promising id pay the 50 cents each bu since there was 7 of us... it came up a lot and it was acutally 95 cents :|.. i got really sad since im also missing 10 dollars...... :( what i will buy in japan: - keep the fuck away from gloomy bear that shit is rotting in my room useless... BUT SOOO IRRESISTABLE!!!!!!! :( - gifts for my friends and family- 1,000 -shoes like fuck limit to 1,000 -cute stationaries, accesories are a must limit to 1,000 (HAHAHHA well this includes bags) - clothes........ must limit this to only 1,000 -gadgets limit to only 1,000 this trip will rob me of my life... im having second thoughts on my budget ahahha 0 HEARD 'EM SAY things i love: big things... shirts, shorts (baller haha), smiles, guys. braids... belts, hair, bracelets, tanks, shoes rainbows... pastels, clouds, colours. games... the video kind technics... djs, pyrotechnics, technooo, technologyyyyY my midnight tickets for me and my friends to see TDK <3! goind downtown afta schooooOOo my 96 average ahhaha applebees dessert shooters (oreo kind) MY FRIENDS :) dreadlocks half asian white guys... or white guys with asian eyes... uhm GEORGE NOZUKA! things i hate: school!... history is so easy and yet soooo stressful :( work!... so long and soooooo boring! i need a new job when my parents get mad at me for no reason or stupid shit. i'm probably the most innocent girl ever, the more you rope me into this perfect prototype, the more i'll want to rebel. just ...eff off... i need to sleep. my sister, joe, and jace off to cali for 2 weeks :( things i want: *a skateboard *PASTEL RAINBOW BIG TEE @ AA *BULL SHORTS @ AA EVERYTHING @ AA *A JOB @ AA <3 <3 <3 a dress shorts to dance to sing *to laugh a weekly pass 4 next week a 99 average tall gladiatorssomeone to love Everyone hates my taste in guys, but the guys that like me are like... BLEH haha and I'm not really shallow, ok... :P I want a guy like SETH ROGEN... funny, funny, and... cute/funny :) and I mean cute in that funny way. I just want someone to hug, cook for, sleep beside, shop for, make stuff for, mail, call, listen to, kiss, go-kart, talk to my friends with, paintball, and then fall asleep again... T havent updated recently because T've been busy what with school starting and all. My first day of school (last thursday) was really cool. We had get to know you games and such, that was fun. I met some of my friends friends but I didnt really get along with everyone. Someone already hates me for me doing nothing. I love seeing all my other friends, esp. Eleisha at breaks but I don't have friends in my class. Homework load is a lot, but I've been doing really well. On Sunday the fam (Carolyn, Diandra, Cristelle, Anna, Tina) went to the beach. It was cute but we waited like soo effin long for Caro's guy friends to come! hahaha but I actually didnt mind because we as a family got to eat, take pix, bond, you know.. I'm not gonna see them next year. I love them a lot... they're good friends. The guys stole a freezer with like... beer lmfao :| and they brought chronic but only for themselves :(... There was a girl missing at the beach. Tt made me really sad. I miss Anna already. Yesterday I went to school and presented my shiteous project which I half did on my own.... My partner was like- KSDJKALJD not gonna say anything. Afterwards, we went to Dannys to wait for Janvir, then my house to change, then downtownnnn which was nice. I I boughta white AA v-neck and a red shiny headband. It's about time I got a WHITE v-neck. I need them ALL! :D THENNN we picked up Monee and went to applebees! Seats courtesy of Rich.... -_- HAHA. I love my friends, they're so jokes and they make me soo happy. They smoked and surprisingly I refused... I was proud of myself. Went home (Espinozas) and relaxed for a while. Surprisingly we didn't go to Wal-Mart.... Next year I will be going to Japan! So I really do have to save :S BEFORE I DO... I've already decided what I want to spend with my upcoming paycheque. - a peach aldo bag (i really need a bag) - rainbow (pastel) big tee - skateboard (only 20 dollars towards savings) haha YOU MUST... visit!!! http://youtube.com/watch?v=e45J0SCXO5s 0 HEARD 'EM SAY Today I went to Ribfest @ Centennial w/ my fam. It was pretty awesome. We only stayed for a while but MMMMMMomg!!! Can't go wrong with ribs ribs ribs! :*) Pia and Joe got two crazy blooming onions. Mmmmm so good and greasy. KSDJAKSDJ. Then it stared to rain :( I bought cotton candy and dipped :D After, we went to Squaaare (ugh loaftville much LOL) and there was that sale @ Aritzia. I got some athletic shorts... I'm ashamed to say.. TNA JSADKJSIOAS. Ew. Lol. I keep promising myself that I will stop buying TNA shit but I just keep going at it. It's a guilty pleasure, really. I wanted this gold Talula dress, heavily reduced but still quite pricey so it was a no. My mom said I could get the high waisted wilfred skirt in black! Eeeeeee. <3>a POOL jeebz I can only wish - McDonawwwwdsss obvi. - half of every paycheck, i'm saving for my Japan trip next year... hopefully if the rents let me. I WANT - new layout is in the making.. too lazy and uninspired to make a banner. I'm hoping to do one hand-drawn or using my wacom tablet that is basically rotting somewhere in this house..... - wesc x Aoki headphones!@#$%$# - black aa cardigan *- high gladiators - oxfords - chanel 1505's.... fuck. Now my Family and I are seeing 30 Days of Night. Theres a bloody eskimo kid running away from a vampire right now (heavy shit right thurrr hahahaha) This movie is effed... But it's good. 0 HEARD 'EM SAY |
